Sacred Doubt
Mother Teresa’s passionate expression of doubt is a reflection of the profundity of her faith and places her firmly in the lineage of the great spiritual figures of every tradition who were shaped by the exquisite anguish of finite human beings genuinely, fiercely and unconditionally yearning for the infinite. This window into the agonizing spiritual darkness Mother Teresa felt and the wrenching doubt she experienced about God, Jesus’ love, and prayer should invite not only deeper respect for her spiritual depth but greater reflection into the character of authentic faith, especially in these days in which faith is confused with certainty and doubt with weakness. These letters remind us that any faith that is certain is no faith at all just as any love never doubted is very shallow love.
How undermining Mother Teresa’s letters are to all fundamentalist faiths be they religious or secular. She was not some God-intoxicated mystic confidently empowered to sacrificially offer her life in service to the poorest people on this planet. Yes, we might have liked her to have been in ecstatic union with God as it would allow us to get off the hook by either idealizing her as someone with extraordinary faith, the sort of faith we normal human beings could never possess, or by seeing her as massively psychologically deluded, the sort of delusion normal human beings ought never suffer. But it appears there is no escaping Mother Teresa’s challenge.


